Random Thoughts and Comments 20221130

First, the color versions of the Affinity Publisher collections (Ads & Covers and Book Formatting) are now available on Amazon and will be at some point elsewhere. (IS is slow to review sometimes.) I don’t actually recommend buying them because I think you can get the same thing for cheaper if you buy the ebook and black and white print versions. But for those who want color images in their print book, they’re now available.

I’ve been back to working on audio lately. Mostly because my pretty new computer that I got from ASUS spent the last month with them for repairs that they didn’t make. (Not buying another computer from them, thank you very much.)

So I published the audio of four holiday short stories from one of my romance pen names and have now recorded the audio for two of my cozy mystery novels. I should really be reviewing the last of those files right now, but sometimes you just hit a wall and don’t want to be productive. Which means I’ll wrap that up tomorrow.

I wanted to do three before I released any, but I think at this point I’ll just release those two and see how they go. It takes me about a week to record each one, which would mean another seven weeks to do the rest of the series, which is a lot of time really.

I’ve been enjoying doing the audio, though. In terms of level of difficulty I think it goes non-fiction, short story, novel, series of novels.

The biggest challenge after just getting good audio recordings is all the character voices. In a series you end up with a larger number of recurring characters that each need their own distinctive voice, which is not so easy to do. Even in a first-person POV you need them to be distinct enough to have a conversation between different characters that works for the listener.

I’ve also found that narrating audio makes any writing tic you may have glaringly obvious in a way that even having Word read back to you doesn’t. Hopefully it’ll improve my writing next time I actually write a novel or short story, but probably not. Not unless I narrate before release and then make edits and re-record which is a lot to do for fairly minor issues.

No idea when I’ll write more fiction. I have a big non-fiction project to wrap up next.

And then…I don’t know. I have a zillion fiction ideas I could write, but I may just step back and focus on other life things for a while.

Of course, I say that and then a week later I set some new goal for myself and I’m back in the race.

In non-writing news…

I was lucky to have a good family Thanksgiving get together this year, but with only half of the attendees because of sickness. Another friend didn’t even get to have her family’s celebration because of people being sick. Non-COVID.

I think that may be more the norm going forward than it was before even if it’s not directly people having COVID. Some folks’ immune systems are just more susceptible now than they were before.

Of course, two weeks ago 1/3 of my brother’s workplace tested positive for COVID, so that’s definitely still around, too. And a video I watched today by a cardiologist about the long-term side effects of getting COVID makes me more than willing to continue to play cautious for the time being.

I honestly don’t expect I’ll ever stop masking at the store. No reason to do so other than social pressure, and I could care less about what other people think of me.

I’ve said it before, I’ll say it again and again and again. My dad died at 45 from an illness he had when was five or six that permanently damaged his kidneys. I don’t fuck around with illnesses that can cause long-term damage. I’ve witnessed that life and it’s not one I want to live if I don’t have to.

So.

Onward.

Piracy Hurts Us All

Yesterday, the U.S. government unsealed an indictment against two Russian nationals who were behind a massive online piracy site.

When the online domains related to this site were seized I saw a lot of people on Twitter that got very upset about it. They were pissed that all their free content had been taken away from them. Some were very vicious towards one specific author whose fans they blamed for outing the site.

I was disgusted by that reaction.

Somewhere somehow someone has twisted piracy into this idea that “life is hard so I deserve free things from our corporate overlords and I’m just sticking it to the man when I consume pirated content.” Which is a bullshit fantasy unconnected from reality.

As someone who works very hard to create content that is not high-priced and is as available as I can make it through places like libraries, piracy pisses me off.

I mentioned here that within 24 hours of my posting my video content about Affinity on Udemy it was stolen and posted on another site. Someone deliberately went in, bought the courses, stole all of the content, and then requested a refund after they’d done so. I didn’t even get paid the cost of one person watching that course before they stole it.

I’m not some big corporation. I’m a single individual trying to make a living by producing creative content (books, audiobooks, video courses) and to have someone immediately steal what I produced is offensive.

That sort of theft makes it even harder for little guys like me to continue to do this. The big corporations that people are supposedly sticking it to will go on. They’ll raise their prices for everyone else who buys their product or simply not publish certain types of content.

It’s the little guys that get taken out by piracy.

And the authors who write for those big publishers, too. Because what happens is some author writes a book that sells well. But then book two gets pirated left and right and suddenly the sales for that author look like crap. The publisher sees that drop in sales and decides that the author didn’t really do well after all and drops the author.

The author that those people loved so much they just had to steal that author’s book loses their career. The big corporation that published them? Finds a new author to publish and carries on just fine.

So when people pirate they are actually screwing over the littlest players in the market. The solo entrepreneurs struggling to make enough to keep going and the authors who came up with that material in the first place.

It’s a really shitty thing to do.

Bravo to the DOJ for doing something to address it. I hope they do more.

It Is What It Is

This week I finally decided to tackle trying to put my cozy mysteries into audio. At this point I’ve put at least five non-fiction titles and a half dozen or more short stories into audio that I recorded myself, so I’ve done the practice and fine-tuning to be ready for this.

Maybe. A novel is a whole level of difficulty harder.

The main challenge is character voices. You have to find character voices that are distinct enough to be audibly different and also that aren’t too annoying to listen to. The one romance novel I paid to have put into audio, this was the issue I had with it. I really didn’t like the second female character voice at all.

Now that I’m doing this myself, though, I begin to understand the issues involved and how challenging it can be to do multiple good character voices. Only reason I’m willing to tackle these books is that it’s written in first-person so technically all of the character voices can be that narrator’s interpretation of the people around her.

Still hard, though, even with that allowance.

Anyway. What has me writing this post is my intense desire to start rewriting the cozy after doing the first few chapters in audio.

Some of it’s minor issues I’m noticing, like a sentence that has “nearby” and “world go by” that creates an unintentional rhyme that I don’t like. Or another one that used making twice in two different ways where I could replace one or the other to get rid of that repetition.

And there’s a bit of a pacing issue, too. I can see as I read the audio where I could’ve maybe tightened things up better when I was giving the needed background info.

The narrator voice in those books is very much stream-of-consciousness first-person so there’s going to be more random information included than other POVs might use, but there’s a bit of repeating information that probably didn’t need to happen.

What’s funny is I’ve reread this book at least three or four times over the past few years as I wrote the series and didn’t notice these issues. But narrating the story for audio gives a whole other level of feedback.

I think it will sound fine to listeners so these aren’t fatal flaws for the audio version. Still. I really want to fix it.

But I’m not going to let myself do that. It is what it is at this point. (I did find a typo, so that’ll get fixed. But nothing else.)

Why not fix it? Why leave it as is if I can see a way to improve it further?

One, because it’s done just fine so far and I could inadvertently break something that works if I try to fix it. As of right now the book has 529 ratings on Amazon with a 4.3 star average, so readers in general are not hating it.

Two, there’s a temptation to get stuck in a loop of ongoing minor improvements at the cost of forward movement. My readers would rather have the audiobook (or a new book in that series) than have me tweaking the first book in the series forever.

Three, because no matter how many times I loop through that book it will never be perfect. I don’t do minimum viable product, but I do subscribe to the “as good as I could make it at the time” approach. So there’s always a little room for improvement, but it’s in A territory already and that distance from A to A+ is too much effort for too little change in the ultimate product.

So I will just have to suffer through on this one and leave it as is. (Except for that stupid typo I found. I swear those things breed when you’re not looking at them.)

Okay. Off to try to come up with a secondary female voice that’s about the same age as the first voice but different enough you can tell them apart. That should be easy to do …Not.

Why Authors Shouldn’t Provide Trigger Warnings

Before this invites drama, let me repeat that headline but where I’m able to use italics. I don’t think that authors should provide trigger warnings.

And here’s why.

First, I don’t know what triggers readers. In general if I’m writing about it, it doesn’t trigger me. Even heavily emotional content, like the death of a parent (which some consider a trigger) does not trigger me. So until I see someone else mention that that’s a trigger for them, I have no clue that it should be listed.

Second, even if someone could give me a list of all the things that someone somewhere might be triggered by, when I’m writing or even editing, I do not need to be laying that critical layer on top of my writing. I need to write the story I need to write and then someone else can judge that.

Third, I think a trigger warning provided by an author gives some sort of indication of safety that is absolutely not there. The reader thinks, “Well, they wrote it, they must have been able to identify all the triggers, so if the one that triggers me isn’t listed, then this book is safe for me.”

Which is just not true. I am aware of more triggers than most because I spend too much time seeing discussions about this on Twitter. But there are tons of authors out there who’d not even realize that something they wrote or said was triggering to someone else.

For example, (trigger warning: fatphobia) in my own writing I might on page five have a character grimace at the fact that she’s getting older and putting on some weight. For me, that is a throwaway comment. It’s just a statement of fact. She’s putting on weight as she ages. Most of us do. But for a reader who feels attacked from every direction for their weight, that is very triggering because it’s very clear fatphobia.

Even if I had a list of issues to identify, I’d miss things like that. I’d search for “fat” and completely miss that casual observation.

Which is why I think individual readers are best-equipped to identify triggers, because they know what triggered for them as they were reading.

I don’t tend to like violence towards animals, for example, but there are books that can use it and I’m fine, because of how it was used, and there are books that use it and I will never read that author again. I only know for me as a reader what impacts me.

Letting individuals identify triggers also lets others judge how much they’ll factor in that trigger warning for their own reading choices.

There are people in my life where we are well-aligned in terms of what offends us and there are people in my life where I just let their personal upsets wash past me.

I personally (trigger warning: transphobia) can read a book that mentions Harry Potter or JK Rowling and not have an issue with it, especially if it was written more than five years ago. Others cannot.

(That doesn’t mean I’m transphobic, by the way, I’m all for people living their lives in the way that makes them the happiest. But I didn’t grow up on Harry Potter and am also not closely involved in trans issues so that doesn’t hit me the same way it would someone who identified by their Hogwarts house for years and is trans.)

And to be clear, there is nothing wrong with being triggered by content and not wanting to read the sort of content that you don’t like. There are authors I do not read because of the way they handle certain topics.

I just don’t think authors are the best judges of that sort of thing. Or that there’s some universal criteria or standard that can be applied objectively most of the time. We are all different. We all bring our entire life experience to anything we read. We all react differently to what’s on the page. Triggers are personal, IMO.

(No comments allowed on this post, by the way. Not trying to engage in a debate on this, just stating my personal opinion.)

Inflection Points

I’ve been thinking a lot these days about inflection points. To me when I use that term it means that things were carrying along one way, kind of holding steady, and then they suddenly flipped. A point of change was reached and that change was sudden. Like an off switch was hit.

There was a thread on a similar idea on Twitter recently about the transition to cold water in the ocean that had this same general concept. This idea that you’re one thing until you’re not.

I’ve been thinking about it in terms of personal and social change. Let me give you an example of personal change.

I’ve been a proud drinker of Coca-Cola for thirty years now. There were some years there when I went for Diet Coke with Lime, but for the most part I am a fan of the good old-fashioned Coca-Cola with all the calories and sugar and caffeine. And no amount of people telling me I’d get diabetes (I didn’t) or that it can clean a quarter so think what it does to your insides (which who knows is maybe true, it’s certainly good at fixing a corroded car battery) could make me stop drinking it.

There was a month in college where my mom was taking a psychology class and offered me a dollar a day for every day I didn’t drink Coke where I stopped drinking it to make that money and then immediately went back to it when the experiment ended. But for the most part I’ve been a steady drinker of Coke my whole adult life.

I once calculated during my freshman year of college that I was drinking the equivalent of fifteen cans of Coke a day, but in more recent years I’d mellowed out and was down to two a day.

Until the pandemic hit and I had a big, physical move that required a lot of sweating and energy and I jumped up to five a day.

I was fine with that. Drinking Coke is a lot better than becoming an alcoholic or some of the other unhealthy stress-relieving activities I could engage in.

So Coke is arguably my main addiction and has been for my entire adult life. To the point that my drinking glasses are Coke-themed (thanks to my mom).

But today at the store I decided not to buy any. Not because I don’t want it, I do, but because I just hit that point where I was done with their recent shit.

Their recent pricing changes were more annoying to me than the joy I get out of consuming their product. (And after all these years it’s not so much joy as habit and a certain reliability. The bite of a good cold can of Coke can’t be beat, but it’s not something you relish when you drink one five times a day.)

See, pre-pandemic I could go to the grocery store the week of a major holiday and get four 12-packs of Coke for $10. Sometimes I might have to settle for 4 for $12 or 3 for $11, but that 4 for $10 deal was consistent on major holidays.

AND if I bought them at King Soopers I could buy 12 or 16 at a time which would last me until the next holiday.

Not anymore. The last year or so there’s been a limit of four per transaction. And the regular price for a twelve-pack of Coke is now something like $8. So even when Safeway does a buy 2, get 2 deal, which sounds really impressive, it’s $4 each!

I wouldn’t have begrudged them a move to 4 for $11 or even 4 for $12 as long as I could still stock up. But this?

Nah.

It made me decide that maybe it’s time to switch over to something healthier. Maybe I’ll try straight-up water. Out of the tap or with my handy little Brita filter.

I would’ve happily consumed Coke until my doctor told me not to for my health, which had yet to happen in thirty years. But I don’t know. This just feels shitty all around. (And it’s impacted by the fact that most of the inflation we’re seeing right now is actually caused by corporate greed. Raising prices while they can and reporting record profits. Well, guess what, I didn’t need that product after all it turns out. Oh, and I like Shell gas stations, but not going there anymore either. Enjoy your record profits assholes.)

This flip of a switch and sudden change in behavior happens all the time in all sorts of circumstances. The pressure builds and builds until little things that were tolerable or okay or good enough suddenly aren’t anymore.

Like in a relationship. You can be going along thinking to yourself, “well, they do X and Y, but…it’s fine” until suddenly one day you’re like, “I can’t do this anymore. I have tolerated X for the last time. I am done.” Boom. Over.

Whole systems and lives can collapse from one little extra weight on top of an already unsteady system…

I don’t know how you see that coming as a business or an individual. Maybe you just don’t take it for granted? Or try to see how far you can push? Or take the short-sighted view that doesn’t encompass the entire relationship?

I don’t know. Maybe people like me who get pushed too far and just wash our hands and walk away without looking back are rare enough that we shouldn’t be the ones who determine decisions.

(Although I will say that I’m generally the one that taps out on an author or TV series about two books or a year before most people do, so I suspect folks like me are actually the proverbial canary in the coalmine…)

Anyway. An interesting thought to be having on an election day that could have profound impacts for this country I live in.

Random Thoughts and Comments 20221101

First, if you live in the U.S. and haven’t done so yet, vote. I think this election is going to be a pivotal one and regardless of which side you’re voting for, you should pick a side. And, please, for the love of God, dig a little deeper than slick campaign ads to make your decision.

Humans have this tendency to think “oh, I’ve heard that name before” and then create a positive association or accept something as true because they heard it. Dig deeper than that. We live in an age where crap information is basically floating in the air 24/7 and it’s too easy to go with what seems familiar without realizing what you’re doing.

(And ignore polls. I don’t know anyone other than my grandma who answers calls, phones, or texts from strangers.)

Second, since I’m in parent mode it seems, get boosted for COVID if you haven’t. This whole thing is an endurance and adaptability challenge and so many people aren’t meeting it.

In case you missed these shifts: COVID is more lingering in the air than lurking on surfaces so breathing stale air is more risky than touching a counter, there are still mutations happening that can get around prior infection, long-term effects for even minor cases have proven to be brutal for some (even those who’d been vaccinated) so the best bet is to never get sick, and for about the last year-plus being vaccinated is not enough to avoid getting infected.

Vaccination does reduce how sick you’ll get, but only during that early six to nine months did it also protect against getting sick at all. And what protection it gives wanes over time so, you know, masks, air filters, and not throwing yourself in the midst of large crows are all still good ideas.

Third, Twitter. As I’ve mentioned before, I refuse to have an account there because I found myself spreading too much negativity, but I do go there regularly to read content.

It’s a scary time for big users of that site, because it was a good source of an audience for things like funding SFF short story publishers, and for me it was a good source of COVID info. Now…

The new owner has shown themselves to be aligned with certain questionable parties and you have to imagine they will either deliberately kill the site to shut down a vital source of independent information or that the shifts due to policy decisions will leave it a ghost town anyway.

Whichever it is in the end, it will make forming community and getting the word out about creative projects that much harder I think. And no one knows where to jump to at the current moment from what I can tell.

There’s an alignment issue out there between the social media giants and their audiences and no consensus on which is the least ugly option.

Fourth, for me the last month or so AMS ads have been a bit of a blood bath. I think a few factors are at play, one being a potential tweak to how they handle broad matches for keywords. There’s no context to them at all anymore.

For example, I have books on Microsoft Access that I used to advertise using “access” as a broad keyword just fine. I think before behind the scenes Amazon at least took into account the product category.

But this month I was seeing clicks on things like “Amazon early access sale” which have nothing to do with my books.

My better-selling titles aren’t as impacted, but for titles with less sales? Ugh. It’s nasty. And I’m only seeing a sliver of how bad it is because I only see it when people click on the ads using those sorts of keywords.

I think there may also be a bit of an ad war happening in my little subgenre. There was one keyword where Amazon was recommending bids of $35. (hahaha, okay.) But most of mine are now in the $3 recommended range and there are tons of almost-identical looking books in the charts that have that large boxset fast-produced titles vibe that hit fiction a few years back.

This is an industry where you have to adapt and change all the time or risk dying off.

Which leads to point five. If the product you offer (in books or anything) is just like the product everyone else offers then you’re at the mercy of advertising and competition and you’re going to end up with a very low-margin business that requires high volumes to make anything.

If you don’t want to compete in that space then you have to offer something no one else is.

In fiction, for example, I have my go-to authors. I don’t check their book prices I just buy. (Although if they got too far outside of the norm I’d probably notice).

I do that because what they offer is not what I can get from any other author.

But there are other authors out there who I forget as soon as I read them. I’m not going to circle back and see if they have a new release, because there are a thousand other authors who can offer that same generic experience.

One is selling a premium product, the other is not. (At least not for me personally. Reader tastes differ widely so my “eh” author could be someone else’s “must buy immediately” author.)

I think if you want to survive long-term, you have to find a way to offer something to your readers no one else can offer.

Easier said than done, but necessary I think, especially going forward.

Writers Need Other Stories

I met a friend for lunch the other day who has been working on the same novel for close to twenty years now.

This friend is an excellent writer. When I saw some of the chapters from the book six years ago it was funny and a great opening. But my friend queried the book and was told it had a pacing issue and so has spent the time since then going down rabbit hole after rabbit hole and following critique after critique changing the novel trying to figure out how to fix this issue.

The one thing my friend has not done is…read a book in their genre.

They’ve been so busy with their work and kids and life that they don’t actually read any books anymore, not even in audio, which when trying to fix an issue like pacing is working blind, IMO.

They won’t follow my advice, but what I told them they needed to do was set aside this novel, read ten novels in the genre they’re trying to write back to back, and then pick up their book and read it like it’s the 11th novel they’re reading.

If they do that, they should then be able to see the pacing issues because they’ll have established the pattern for that genre in their mind and it will catch them out when that pattern isn’t followed in their own novel.

(I also told them to stop working on the same damned novel and go write two other novels and come back to this one later, but they won’t listen to me on that one either.)

Now, granted, I’m high Strategic, so I see patterns that maybe others don’t, so this may not work for my friend.

But the idea is that most books in most popular genres (romance, mystery, speculative fiction) have a certain flow and pace to them.

Differences do exist between books in genres, it’s not set in stone, but you can get a very good feel for what to include/not include and when the action should peak or ebb for each genre by reading a number of books in the genre in quick succession.

Even if you don’t have time to read, there are other ways to absorb story. Taylor Swift came out with her latest album today. Each of her songs is a sketch of a much larger story.

She’s a great one for that. Kenny Rogers and Jim Croce are two others that come to mind. They can tell an entire life in one song.

There are important lessons that can be learned from music about what to include to create this sense of a much bigger story.

(Same with poetry. Kahlil Gibran distilled so much about life and relationships into very few words.)

I love music and if I could sing a lick I would’ve probably thrown everything I had at being a singer, but to use music as a tool to improve writing requires not just listening to songs, but then asking yourself, “Why does that lyric move me? How is it appealing to my experience? How is it lifting me up? Or bringing me down? What have they done with the words they use to get that effect? Why do those words trigger a reaction from me?”

Writers can’t use every tool that songs use like background vocals and instruments, but we can learn from the lyrics of songs.

If you had to distill your story down to a song, are the elements there? The emotions, the characters, the setting, the outcome? Are you hitting the core of the story enough times throughout the novel like a song repeats a verse?

Speaking of, I love some of the Masterclass courses and the latest one I really enjoyed was by John Legend on songwriting. It was excellent even for a non-songwriter like myself.

The approach he takes to writing songs isn’t necessarily something that can translate to writing a novel since he starts with the the music behind the words, but perhaps in a sense it can if you focus on the feeling you want to give the reader before you start.

Is this going to be a fun story? A dark story? One that ends in triumph? One that ends in defeat? How high will the characters get? How low will they get? What tone are you going for?

What would be the soundtrack if you had one for this novel? If this novel were an album, what ten emotions/experiences would you want to distill from it? Do you even have something you can distill from the novel or are people just moving around on the page?

Bottom line: writers don’t write in a vacuum. If you’re not bringing in new experiences and material then you may be mining past experiences and material, but at some point you need to feed more in.

And if you’re still learning (which I’d argue we all are always), then you need to occasionally go back to the type of stories you write and read a bunch of them to see how others do it. You’ll see something new each time you circle back because of what you’ve learned in your own writing in the meantime.

Anyway. Just a few random thoughts to share. Off to record some audio if my dog will let me.

A Maturing Industry

One of the things I learned as a regulator was that there is an ebb and flow to things. In that case we’d get more and more proscriptive about what could and could not be done until people screamed bloody murder at which point the trend would move towards more principles-based requirements until people said, “well, that wasn’t what the rule said” and tried to get out of the principled requirement using semantics and it would reverse again.

Back and forth, back and forth it goes.

Right now we’re seeing a sort of tide shift with streaming content. One I personally hate. You want me to pay for you like you’re cable but then also make me watch a ton of ads that aren’t placed properly in your content so that it just randomly switches out mid-scene to an ad? Yeah, I’ve got a bunch of old DVDs I think I need to rewatch, thanks.

There was this big new area of exciting development with streaming at one point and all sorts of new players rose up and tried things and found their niche (love you Acorn), but now we’re in the consolidating, gotta suck every last penny out of the system stage. We’ll probably have to suffer through that for a few years until maybe some equilibrium develops or some new disruptive technology emerges to change things again.

There are rumblings that self-publishing is heading into some sort of contraction stage, too.

I think the glory days when there were more readers looking for content than writers who could provide it are long gone. That was five years ago or more, but people who got a good start then have kept acting like that’s still possible for anyone. It’s not and I think even they are finally beginning to realize that as people that were doing pretty well start to slide into obscurity.

I had a conversation two years ago with someone about self-pub and Amazon and how it all worked. Everything I told them was publicly available. Nothing was a secret. But I knew where to look. At the time, this person asked me how someone who was brand new would find that information. My answer was I didn’t know.

When I got started there was a forum that was the first place anything new was mentioned. That’s where I learned about Kobo promotions and Vellum and all sorts of other developments. And, yes, some of that moved to FB groups, but not in a great way IMO. And a lot of the inside baseball conversations just aren’t happening publicly anymore.

Because we’re now in a maturing industry in self-pub. The raft is full and the ocean is right there and no one wants to fall off the raft and drown. Which is not to say that there aren’t people helping one another or bringing others up or that that shouldn’t be happening. But if someone finds something that works for them today, they might not broadcast that fact to the world like they would have a decade ago.

Someone eventually will because there’s a whole ecosystem of people making money off of telling other authors what to do and any useful secret they find they’ll share immediately to up their clout. (This happens in one of the groups I’m in with someone who charges authors for marketing help. Of course, generally that will make that particular secret ineffective or much less effective in approximately three months’ time as everyone scrambles to get in on the latest thing.)

We also now have some very well-developed heavy-hitters in this industry. I think most of them are going to be solid going forward. They’ll get knocked sideways at some point by Amazon changes or something like that, but they’ve staked out their positions and as long as they keep delivering, they’ll be good.

What will happen is that a lot of people who didn’t make it to that steady place in time will fall off.

Maybe they keep publishing, but turn to a day job. Maybe they turn to trade pub. Maybe they quit altogether.

Some will innovate and find new ways to reach little pocket audiences. I know one author who has turned towards Kickstarter and using their own website for sales, for example.

But a lot are going to drop off in the next few years. Which, for the “easy money” types who killed it for a while there, farewell and good riddance, enjoy the next easy money wave you find to ride, wherever that may be. For the ones who always had a dream of being a successful writer and see that dream disappear, that’s gonna hurt. A lot.

Which is not to stay that you can’t still launch a successful pen name. I have a good friend who launched an incredibly successful pen name just this year after launching a different one two years ago. And another friend who launched a successful one about two years ago.

What those friends had though was the ability to write well and write quickly, the ability to hit the genres they were aiming for, the ability to package their books well for that genre, and the marketing know-how to launch those first books into the top 1000. Not a lot of authors have all those skills. Even a decade into this “self-pub revolution”.

I don’t think I have all of those to be honest.

Those friends were also writing for big genres. We too often fail to give credit to how important it is that you are writing for a big enough genre if you want to support yourself at this. Romance authors hate having this pointed out, but, hey, there are a lot more romance readers that read voraciously than there are readers who want another book like Tolstoy wrote. Doesn’t make it easier to write those books, just means those books have more of a chance to get some good sales when they are written well.

Yeah, so, maybe read up on how to succeed in a mature industry. Warning, though, that the definitions there of the shakeout we’re seeing/about to see aren’t great for this scenario, because I don’t expect consolidation, I just expect a lot of people to drop out with their books sitting there on Amazon forever not being actively promoted and with no new content being produced until probably at some point there’s a cull of books that don’t sell off of the various platforms. (Maybe. It’s electronic records so what’s the space it’s taking up, right? But still. If you’re not showing them in search indexes, why bother listing them?)

Anyway. With that cheerful thought I am going to go spend the day with my family and my dog (which I just tried to spell god, haha) up in the gorgeous Colorado mountains, because no matter where my own personal path goes in the next few years I don’t regret for one moment taking the last ten years for myself, my family, and my dog. Nor do I regret a single one of the books I’ve written or all the skills I’ve had the joy of learning.

Randomness

I just sent off my shiny new laptop for unknown repairs because it kept restarting while I was working. It was my first Asus and it’s beautiful, but…beauty doesn’t help when it doesn’t work first.

I miss my old Sony Vaio laptops. I’ve been struggling to find a good one ever since. I’m typing this on my Lenovo Ideapad or Thinkpad, I can never remember which. It’s held up nice over the last five years or so, but when I tried to get another one it ran so hot when I first got it that I returned it immediately and bought a Dell laptop instead. Which also runs hot.

Which is why I swore I was going to go with a desktop for work this time around. And then I got suckered in by the Asus…

It cracks me up to think that I made it all the way through college and the first year at work with no computer at all and now between the cheap Macs I have for Vellum and a succession of laptops that haven’t quite died but needed replaced I have five working laptops.

Then again, a computer and internet access are pretty much my only must-haves for writing. Well, that and a good enough monitor for the non-fiction screenshots, but that pretty new laptop had that, too.

(But an annoying number pad. Sigh.)

I saw some hot take on Twitter yesterday that I’m refraining from commenting on. But seriously people, when people meet you halfway don’t keep moving the frickin’ goal post or they’ll just quit playing your game altogether.

I had an aunt like that. We did family game night for a bit and whatever the game was, she’d start playing, figure out how she could win if the rules were changed, and then preemptively change the rules so that she’d win. Trivial Pursuit suddenly became the first person who could get another pie, for example, when she was right on top of a category she was good at. Surprise, surprise, we stopped family game night pretty quickly after she started pulling that nonsense.

What else? That book that was frustrating me? Also had a Chekhov’s gun problem. The special book that her mother gave her that she dragged with her for no apparent reason, that her sister maybe noticed was missing, that she hadn’t read in ages, that was rescued from her room being demolished…in the end was never mentioned again. I was going to write a post about using something as characterization versus as a plot element, but I bailed on doing so. Sorry.

Basically if you want to show that your character is a reader, then have them constantly reading books you don’t specify. But if you call out one book in particular and give it a history and have it turn up more than once, it needs to be for a reason. IMO. YMMV. Etc. Etc.

I saw a bunch of different friends recently and I’m in this phase where I feel like a complete failure because of the path I stepped off of and where I would’ve been by now if I’d stayed on that path but at the same time I know I’m on a longer journey and exactly where I need to be to make that journey.

It’s a tricky place to be. Because there’s a part of me that wants to run back to the safety of that old path but I know I don’t want to take that path at all.

Which is part of the reason I am skipping my 15 year MBA reunion. I don’t need to be in a room with people who value and weigh others by their income, power, and influence because I have tried very hard to not put weight on any of those and being back in that environment would be destructive.

Not to mention my inability to avoid reacting to certain things these days. I’m pretty sure I have no chill left. I had to stop following that school on FB and getting their emails about their new published articles because there was a very specific slant to the articles they were publishing that were basically just opinion pieces not proven fact.

Haha. Ah well.

Hiding your opinions and controlling your emotions so no one sees them is a very upperclass thing anyway and that is absolutely not what I aspire to be these days. I need to find a way to have money so there’s no financial worries without actually being around the large majority of people with money.

Right. Yeah, that’s…easy to do.

Let me get right on that.